Yeppy, got myself a new job and will start work tmr!!! Thing is, I just got well, and I still feel groggy... Sobs... Me wants a nice little hug...
I feel awful about acting so bitchy and selfish for the past week... I wanna whack myself... I'm so sorry to everybody... I was really a bitch back there... Maybe still am...
Maybe I oughtta get meringues for everybody. Ooh, those cute little meringues were adorable... :P
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Feeling sick... Literally
I fell sick yesterday... Felt so terrible I even cried... Felt like I was dying... I've always been rather frail and weak since young but never once did I cry when I fell sick, no matter how terrible I felt. I've always suffered from injuries too, falling down and hurting myself were all part of a daily life. I never shed a single tear either. I was always tough, I welcome the pain, even. I never ever cry and sob over tiny things such as a flu or a cut.
And yet now, already such a grown up, I cried because I was sick.
Did I really fell that terrible? Or was I crying for something else? I don't know, I really don't know.
I wonder how much will power affects your rate of healing? I was going to see a friend I missed for such a long time this Thursday, and I was worried I wouldn't be able to make it due to my falling ill, so my illness didn't even last for 24 hours. I'm well enough right now, just a little bit of sore throat and all. Even I'm surprised, since the last time I fell ill I took a week to recover.
And now I need to cancel the outing because of another appointment.
Is this all part of growing up, I wonder? Would adulthood be filled with so many decisions and troubles? Suddenly, staying 17 forever would be what I really want...
I feel so bad... Here I was, ranting on about people not contacting me, people being too busy and grown-up, people not caring about their friendships anymore, and I can't even make it to one single hang-out a well-meaning friend organised.
I feel selfish. I really feel so damn selfish.
By the time I come back from NS, I'm sure I wouldn't be able to see many of you again. I just want to see all of you one more time...
And yet now, already such a grown up, I cried because I was sick.
Did I really fell that terrible? Or was I crying for something else? I don't know, I really don't know.
I wonder how much will power affects your rate of healing? I was going to see a friend I missed for such a long time this Thursday, and I was worried I wouldn't be able to make it due to my falling ill, so my illness didn't even last for 24 hours. I'm well enough right now, just a little bit of sore throat and all. Even I'm surprised, since the last time I fell ill I took a week to recover.
And now I need to cancel the outing because of another appointment.
Is this all part of growing up, I wonder? Would adulthood be filled with so many decisions and troubles? Suddenly, staying 17 forever would be what I really want...
I feel so bad... Here I was, ranting on about people not contacting me, people being too busy and grown-up, people not caring about their friendships anymore, and I can't even make it to one single hang-out a well-meaning friend organised.
I feel selfish. I really feel so damn selfish.
By the time I come back from NS, I'm sure I wouldn't be able to see many of you again. I just want to see all of you one more time...
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